Song of the Day: http://www.imeem.com/naynaepurikuz/music/ppfftpkS/rose-sirintip-superman-its-not-easy/
Things I did today:1) Read White Bears pg. 1-52
2) Bball
Thoughts:Wow I seriously hate this book I'm supposed to read for Psych. I completely forgot about reading it all week and trying to cram ~120 pages or so is driving me insane. The book's about suppression/thinking (i.e. don't think about a white bear). It's such a frustrating/annoying read because a recurring theme is our inability to mentally control our thoughts. As the book keeps repeatedly emphasizing this idea, I feel like the author just dictates to me how my brain works/thinks and keeps pointing out all these annoying paradoxes/repetitive dead end thinking patterns that I start obsessing over and can't get out of my head - I just get the feeling that the author is hijacking my brain and my ability to mentally control my own thoughts. All these things just stop my natural flow of thinking and get me fixated on all these things I DONT FREAKING WANT TO THINK ABOUT. For example, the whole section about obsessive compulsive disorder made me feel like I was being obsessive compulsive and that I was obsessing over obsessive compulsive, etc. and I couldn't stop obsessing over obsessive compulsive and then I was obsessing over obsessing over obsessive compulsive blah blah blah awerj;awrjeiwaojre;jawiorj. I also hate how the author writes about such a deep/complicated/convoluted topic that requires so much FOCUS/CONCENTRATION just to figure out what the hell he's trying to say. It forces me to fixate on what he's trying to talk about and I DONT WANT TO THINK ABOUT THESE STUPID UNPLEASANT THINGS AAAAHHHHHH. Just a very very frustrating and unpleasant read - reading about supression made me want to supress the idea of supression I guess and the moment I realizedd that I just went into infinite mental regress mode.... I don't think I'm going to finish the book because it just makes me feel all flustered everytime I try to get through a sentence.
So yeah whole day wasted because of this stupid book. I'm just going to wake up tomorrow, email my seed question and devote the rest to MCAT studying - I'm going to finish Ch. 2 EK Bio and if I have any time left over start preparing for my Stats mid-term.
Just picked song of the day. veryyyyy relaxing. even tho the lyrics are from a perspective of a guy, i can't listen to this song with a guy voice.... something about this girl's voice (shes thai) is so soothing and just fits the song much better. From a musical standpoint, this song is a perfect example of something I've come to realize lately: What makes a song catchy is the arrangement and the melody. The harmony can be as boring/bread'n butter (I was surprised by how simple the chords were -I, V, VI, IV-) as you want but what makes a song stick in your head is the melody and instrmentation/arrangement. You can use the same chords for two songs and change the melody/arrangement and you have two completely different songs (freetempo is also antoher good example of this - he takes the chords of last christmas and uses them for 2 completely different way crazy catchy songs). anyways just wanted to say this song definitely calms me down from the white bear book...
Things I want to get done tomorrow:1) Submit Psych seed question
2) Finish EK Ch. 2 Bio
3) Start studying for Stats?
Worries for 10/18-10/24:1) Psych Reading/Seed Question - Due Monday NO FREAKING MOREAEWRAWRWAR
2) Stats HW #3 - ?
3) Stats Lab #3 - due Tuesday Oct. 20
4) Stats Mid-Term - due Thursday Oct. 22
5) Geog Lab #3 - Due Friday
6) Geog Mid-Term - due Friday Oct. 30
7) Psych Mid-Term - due Thursday Nov. 5
8) Westwood Clinical Volunteer Application - Due Sunday Nov. 15
9) MCAT - Finish EK Bio due 10/21/09 LATEST. --> probably not going to happen...
9) MCAT - Review EK Physics (list concepts/formulas and try to memorize in spare time).
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